Meet John Robert, also known as Jack to his closest friends

Have I ever mentioned how much I love newborn photography? It is just so much fun! And if you know me on a personal level, you will know that I do not ever, ever, ever desire to be pregnant again. As in, factory closed. I do want more kids, but based on my 2 experiences of pregnancy that I've had, I wouldn't choose it. God may choose it, but I am not planning it for myself. Here's a brief rundown as to why Becky does not want more pregnancies:

-I hate getting fat. And I do. If I'm not doing the diabetic diet which leads me too...

-I want sugar and can't have any if I do the diabetic diet because....

-I am married to a man con un cabeza gigante. My bio babes have gigante heads at birth and according to my doc, I have a small pelvic frame. To be clear, this does not mean small hips. This means the part where the baby enters the world and leaves your belly. Mine is small, my babies' heads are huge. I did the diabetic diet to get a smaller baby with my second. Attempt #2 was what the c-section nurses called a "failed VBAC attempt." This leads to...

-Even though I have THE most amazing OBGYN (who has told me I could try again for a VBAC based on his 20+ years of experience and my birthing history), he tells me my body can probably handle 2 more c-sections.

-C-sections. Ever had one? Chances are you wouldn't wish it on your worst enemy. With my first, I came home from the hospital, only to return to the ER 2 hours later with a raging infection on my incision, followed by 9 days of pumping every 3 hours around the clock to try to re-start breast feeding with my first. (good news: it worked!)

-Breast feeding!? No mas porfa. Basta.

-Let me not fail to mention how I am soooo not a good newborn mother. I need to sleep. Let me rephrase that....I MUST SLEEP. If I don't sleep I am: mean, angry, not self-controlled, etc. I am a train wreck without it. I don't know HOW women go on no sleep. Thank you Lord for my husband!

These are just a few reasons why I, in my own opinion, should never be pregnant again. But here's the cool thing - I LOVE newborns. I love to photograph them for about 3 hours, get my fill, and pass them back to mom and dad. It's great! I totally get my newborn fix and don't have to birth them to experience it! The best of both worlds.

Will I have kids again? Probably not by birth. By adoption? I certainly hope so! We're just gonna get through this "3 under 5" stage we're in before we start talking about it again...